Just for a moment, experiment to simply stay present with the felt sense of your experience. You may notice an urge to label it as thoughts or feelings, to put it all into tidy boxes.
Bring your focus into the body; rest in the rhythm of the breath.
Shiva symbolizes a part of our consciousness that is always awake, always here. He is pure presence.
We do spiritual practice to get out of our own way, to unclench the rigid, automatic ways, and become translucent, soft enough so that the unspeakable essence can permeate through us.