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Kali Ma ~ A Journey through the Dark Goddess

with Chameli Ardagh & the Awakening Women Team

Date : Sept 6 – 8, 2019
Location: Boulder, Colorado

Goddess Kali Ma is the embodiment of the terrifyingly beautiful life/death cycle. She is not only physical death waiting for you there at the very end; she is the shedding of outgrown patterns and strategies. She is the relaxation of the grasping and the pushing; she is the one dancing fiercely in the ashes of all that no longer serves you.

In her ruthless kindness Kali feasts on the safety nets you cling to, just so you can know the inseparable totality you are made of.
Kali sets you free.


Kali Ma, splendorous mother of truth,
tear out the heaps of replica spiritual plastic
cluttering the cathedral of my Being.
Wash away these masks gone stale and drench me in the rain of the real.
My soul is nauseous from binging on the fancy drinks offered on every street corner, 
in my denial of what I am made of, I have been turning my back on
the nectar of you
 gushing through my veins.
In my fear of you I have kept my breath shallow;
I have kept my ecstasies under control, 
my intimacies safe. I’ve tried the route of fixing myself,
or spiritualizing myself, 

of trying to build up a more “goddessy”,
“juicy” “shaktified” version
of this little soap opera I have taken myself to be.

Undress me Ma, how exhausted I am trying to make these hand-me-down clothes fit.
Make a glorious bonfire of it all,
and let me walk naked, like you, into the risk of being.



One day your body will surrender into this cosmic compost pile that sustains us all, and Kali will, in her breathtaking devotion to life, devour you. Although her appearance may look frightening, Kali is the kindest Goddess of them all. She does not let you pretend, and she laughs at you when you insist on trying to get love from the outside; she wants you to recognize the incomprehensible power you are made of. If you trust her she will show you a love that never leaves. When you enter a sadhana/spiritual practice intensive with Kali Ma, you open into a deep intimacy with the creative cycle of birthing and dying; which is ultimately a realignment with the essence of who you are.

About the Practice

First of all: we go deep. We don’t sit around and only “talk about it”; we’re all about direct experience. This is a highly experiential path; a lot of the practices are interactive and include movement, expression and also respectful touch. There will be talks and Q&A with Chameli, as well as Women’s Temple practices.

The basis for all spiritual exploration in the Shakti tradition is the insight that that which we are longing for is who we already are. Thus our practice is not toward a goal of attainment in the future; it is a process of melting, of unraveling the wisdom and beauty already inherent in each woman.

Who is this retreat for?

bullet pointIn order to benefit from this retreat, you need to come prepared to dive fully into the practices, and it is best if you have a basic understanding of feminine/embodied spiritual practice.

bullet pointAlthough there are plenty of breaks to rest and integrate, the Shakti-based embodiment practices can open stronger currents of energy in the body than
we are used to.

bullet pointWe do not spend much time discussing awakening in theoretical matters; we go deep into direct experience through practice.

bullet pointThese are not therapeutic programs. If you are in any way feeling unstable psychologically or are going through a severe crisis, we ask you to not join this event.

bullet pointOne of our core practices involves respectful touch. Your boundaries will of course always be respected, but if you feel a strong resistance to touch, this retreat is probably not for you. We practice respectful touch a lot in our circle to bring presence into our bodies and cultivate the capacity to allow more life energy to flow through us.


Practical information

Retreat dates/times ::
• Friday 6 – 9 p.m.
• Saturday 9:30 a.m. – 6 p.m.
• Sunday 9:30 a.m. – 4 p.m.

Venue ::
Eagle Prairie Land Sanctuary
Niwot Rd.
Boulder, CO
Lodging & transportation helpful hints

Program price ::
Regular price ~ $435
Early bird ~ $335  (if paid by end of day July 15, 2019)
( Prices include two catered lunches. )

Cancellation Policy ::
If you need to cancel for any reason, we retain $75 as an administrative fee. There will be no refunds starting 21 days before the retreat.

You can register via the button below (there is a $10 PayPal fee added) or contact Kirsten to pay with check/money order:


Registration & Information ::
Kirsten Warner


photo credit: © Awakening Women Institute