21 Day Kali Ma Sadhana
~ the fierce face of the divine feminine
with Chameli Ardagh
You can start this course at any time.
Kali Ma, splendorous mother of truth,
tear out the heaps of replica spiritual plastic
cluttering the cathedral of my Being.
Wash away these masks gone stale and drench me in the rain of the real.
My soul is nauseous from binging on the fancy drinks offered on every street corner,
in my denial of what I am made of, I have been turning my back on
the nectar of you gushing through my veins.
In my fear of you I have kept my breath shallow; I have kept my ecstasies under control,
my intimacies safe. I’ve tried the route of fixing myself, or spiritualizing myself,
of trying to build up a more “goddessy”, “juicy” “shaktified” version
of this little soap opera I have taken myself to be.
Undress me Ma, how exhausted I am trying to make these hand-me-down clothes fit.
Make a glorious bonfire of it all,
and let me walk naked, like you, into the risk of being.
Goddess Kali Ma is the embodiment of the terrifyingly beautiful life/death cycle. One day your body will surrender into this cosmic compost pile that sustains us all, and Kali will, in her breathtaking devotion to life, devour you.
She is not only physical death waiting for you there at the very end, she is the shedding of outgrown patterns and strategies, she is the relaxation of the grasping and the pushing, she is the one dancing fiercely in the ashes of all that no longer serves you.
In her ruthless kindness she feasts on the safety nets you cling to, just so you can know the inseparable totality you are made of. She sets you free.
Although her appearance may look frightening, she is the kindest Goddess of them all. She does not let you pretend, and she laughs at you when you insist on trying to get love from the outside; she wants you to recognize the incomprehensible power you are made of.
If you trust her she will show you a love that never leaves. When you enter a sadhana/spiritual practice intensive with Kali Ma, you open into a deep intimacy with the creative cycle of birthing and dying;
which is ultimately a realignment with the essence of who you are.
The teachings will be delivered in e-mails and audio recordings,
you can participate from your own home, start any time.
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